I’m starting with the (wo)man in the mirror…

It’s that time–2011 is gasping its final breaths and everyone is itching to make the changes we’ve been putting off the last few months in anticipation of the New Year.

And I have to admit, I have been looking forward to this demise of year about 6 months into it. Don’t get me wrong– a lot of really wonderful things happened this year–I enjoyed my first full year at my new company, working with people I love; I was able to enjoy some wonderful travel experiences with very dear friends; and I have had the opportunity to experience new things and meet new people who have helped give me many memorable and fun experiences to add in the “good” category for 2011.

However, the amount of hardship and pain that was felt this year, especially by some of the people I love most, is difficult to ignore. There have been so many adversities– from lost jobs to lost loved ones–and every blow just seemed the hang heavier on our collective hearts. I stopped saying, and even thinking, “It can’t get any worse…” because it usually did, even up to 12 hours ago when I learned of the passing of a former schoolmate’s sister is a car accident last night.

Due to these circumstances, and my own life “growing pains,” this year has caused a lot of self-reflection and inaction–ie, letting life live me. There have been so many things that I have felt out of control of and so essentially, I chose to not really make any major decisions because the whole process was overwhelming. And in some ways, this was in fact a good “lesson learned”– I finally was able to realize that it is actually OK to not always have an answer, sometimes you just have to let life happen (waayyyy easier said than done though, for sure), but, I also think I’ve hit a point where I’m ready to start being a bit proactive with myself and my quest for happiness, and to that end, I’ve been keeping notes on all the things I want to accomplish in 2012. Continue reading