I Am Not a Jedi

For those following my blog, the two missing in the Delaware River were recovered, though not alive. Although I wish they could have met a kinder fate, I hope that their families can find some peace by having their bodies returned to them.

The restlessness I was feeling about this incident has subsided since the two were found. It was not the most ideal end to this tragedy, but I am glad that the families and friends can grieve with a sense of closure. And, to be self-centered, I am thankful that I won’t have to pass by the water and feel the unresolved sadness I felt the days before the two were found. Life is now allowed to go on, although it will not be that easy for some… (more…)

After weeks/months/years(?) of putting it off and putting it off, I’m FINALLY officially on to rewriting book 2 of my thesis. I’m amazed at how much I got done tonight… granted, I wrote myself into a bit of a corner (for now) and the whole time I’m thinking “Does this make sense?” “Should I edit it down?” “How will this work with the flow of book I?” but I was still successful in telling myself to power through it enough to get about 4 pages and 1000+ words written.

And that is usually the hardest part. (more…)

Dear God, I’m swimming in the busy right now… I hate to neglect this one outlet for writing that I’m trying to keep up with, but I’m currently in the middle of daily production hell. Basically, for any of you who have ever attended a conference that offered a handy little paper to let you know what happened each day, you can now know that booklet is the product of hours and hours of session attending, quote grabbing, weeks of pre-writing, incessant editing, and lots and lots of alcohol. (more…)

Well,  after being MIA for the past few weeks, I’m hoping life will allow me to enjoy a little down time and normalcy. At least for a week. (more…)

Today I’m totally the sidewalk. (more…)

This was initially going to be a post about how “off” and bitter I was at life today… I spent a good amount of the day sulking about things that weren’t really sulk worthy and being annoyed for no real good reason. I looked up info on grad schools and law schools and other jobs and wondered “what if…” and “what am I doing with my life?” I looked up all our credit cards and calculated how long it would take to pay them off. I looked up info on travel sites and pitied myself for knowing that credit cards cannot be paid off if trips are taken, and wondered which would be more beneficial in the long run. I read news articles about what makes people happy and what makes people sad and how whiny we’re all becoming and then I read all the whiny comments to negate or support that. I looked at people’s facebook pictures and lived vicariously through their peace corps missions and recent trips abroad or crazy fun nights out captured in 1,506 photos. I looked into writing contests and wondered if my thesis will ever get rewritten all the way. I heard another Elton John song on the ride home that made me wonder if I’ll ever be ready to have kids (“Daniel” had a really weird effect on me for a long time…). I weaved in and out of traffic and hit a couple potholes and cursed everything and prayed that this one wouldn’t be the one that would finally blow my tire out. I realized a half mile from the apartment that my gaslight would probably come on on the drive to work tomorrow and that tomorrow would be a horrible time to have to get gas because it is supposed to snow. Again. (Did I mention the significant amount of time I spent tracking the latest storm?) (more…)

Today was a good day–nothing too crazy to write home about, but I figure I should write all the same…

In an unprecedented move, I am going to simply focus on the good things that happened today… (I’ll save the bitching for another time). (more…)