I Am Not a Jedi

The things I am thankful for today:

1. My ability to see. All it takes is my annual trip to the optometrist and those god-awful dilating drops for me to realized just how truly lucky I am to have my vision and how much I take that fact for granted.
2. My David Bowie shirt. D got it for me a few years ago at Target because he knows how much I love Bowie (and it’s the “Live from Philadelphia” Cover), but could only find a size XXL. It’s one of those super slim girl-fit shirts, so an XXL isn’t a total dress, but it’s a bit too big to wear out of the house. Still, this shirt has become my go-to comfort shirt, especially this week.
3. The lunch special at Kabuki. 2 sushi rolls, a bowl of miso soup, and a salad for $8.50? Yes please! Not only is this a great deal, but the special runs ’til 3 so I can generally get here on Fridays. And even better? The sushi is super fresh and delicious (and their ginger salad dressing is AMAZING)! The only downside is that it’s kind of ruined me on my work time sushi  lunch spot because the food there is nowhere near as good.
4. The fact it’s Friday. I am so mentally and physically ready for it to be the weekend… I only wish that I had more down time.
5. A glass of water, with a ridiculous amount of ice. Sometimes, my friends, it’s the little things…

After doing not one, but two back-to-back yoga classes after a 2-week hiatus, I was feeling pretty good about myself, about life. An old friend joined me for both classes and we got to catch up a little outside class. I heard some good road tunes on the drive home–my endorphins were high and felt damn good. Nothing could touch me as I made my way to my apartment, to my husband, the shower, the bed.

And then I saw the sign in the elevator. (more…)

Wednesday was a weird day and frankly, I don’t completely feel recovered from it yet. (more…)

I felt guilty about my “Aunt Flow” food indulgences until I realized these cravings are essentially the last meal request of my dying uterine wall lining. And then I was grateful I could fulfill its final request for Salt & Vinegar Zapp’s chips and caramel Hershey kisses…

So, I’ve been in a bit of a funk for the past few days. There’s nothing in particular that has me “down,” but I just can’t shake this overall “blergh” feeling. (more…)

It almost seems inevitable that Mondays will induce a “case of the Mondays”–sluggish behavior, frustration, sensitivity to less-than-ideal situations. Most Mondays, I am willing to accept this and am almost more accommodating to the bullshit, because this day of the week is the universal day of “I don’t want to be doing what I’m doing right now.” There is a solidarity to it, a sort of zen. I can usually coast through Mondays with that global reassurance and an extra cup of tea.

But today was just not one of those days. Today I had a massive case of the OMFG-NO-FAIRS, coupled with I SHOULDN’T EVEN BE HERE TODAY. (more…)

Donnie’s early birthday gift (a Wii system) has provided hours of entertainment for him and me. While I slipped into a 2-week long obsession with Super Mario Bros. 3, D loaded up the “play now” queue on Netflix and went to town watching everything he ever wanted and didn’t really want to watch. (more…)

Every so often a song comes along that breaks my heart and makes me fall in love all at the same time. I then take to obsessively listening to said song on repeat for hours, days, weeks, pushing my heart to the point of absolute explosion. (more…)

There are a few stories that have become staples in my repertoire. It seems that whenever I’m introduced to a new group or new friend, these are the tales that are told to break the ice, get a laugh, solidify friendship. I ended up telling it again recently for my new coworkers. Later, I wondered how many times I’ve actually told it, and then I thought maybe I should actually write it down, once and for all… (more…)

I am often amazed when the people around me make life decisions so effortlessly, or at least it seems effortless. This one is buying a house; this one is having a baby. Even refinishing a deck is a marvel of otherworldy knowledge to me. (more…)